LOSING MY GROUND

losing my ground once more

faith, wavering in the depths of the see

I see him very clearly, does he see me?

standing in the shadows I feel the pain

as I see the moments past, the visions of then again

and in the twilight of my life

I seek shelter from the cold

and yet I found myself once more losing my ground

these hands I see in front of me

I knew they were once mine

and in the wind I feel his love,all caress divine

and so with shattered thoughts

I awaken from my sleep

only to discover that all was not a dream

and I shake, I cry for help, I sleep less and less

oh when will it stop, oh when will it end

this hell or maybe heaven (for it must be confessed

together with the uncertainty

I found complete and total rest)

it would simply not fade away

is it because I found another

or is it because of that fateful day?

I stare at nothing and I cover my blood stained hands

for I can never decide who lives this life

is it her, or me ,or them or he?

and I found myself losing my ground