Dear reader,

   there will come a time in everyone's life when they have to let go of something important under some pretense or other. and yet, there is a certain predicament that is for me the most painful one to ever occur.

   there is that certain intersection in life's complicated paths where in you will find/realize the exsistence of someone. this someone may be related to you or not, you may have met before or not or just some angel from heaven. whatever...the point is that this will be the someone that ill have the most impact in your life. this will be the person who you will truly love above all (except God, of course), yes even your family. this is the only person you will ever trust, you will ever need, you will ever believe.

    and then there will come a time when you 'will hurt this same prson, one way or another. and you will do it again...and again...and again. finally, you won't be able to stand the knowledge that you're hurting the ony person in the world who you will ever be close to. this will tear you apart. you want to let go but the knowledge that you will wake up in the morning and he/she won't be there anymore is not something you can bear. but in the end you will come to the conclusion that you hae to go your separate ays, even if you need to break the ties yourself.

    You start to erase anything that will remind you of them (from text messages to e-mail adds). everythng they've given you suddenly gets lost then you finally throw away the others (not admitting to your own carelessness).finally, you sit down in front of your computer, plug into the net, find your blog and write a most painful entry that you will erase in a month or so...the last of your momentos of that person...

    dear reader, please bear in mind that what begins must also come to an end.

    farewell to all. I'm sick of hurting others without meaning to. My brother will take over from here on...

                                     -sam, anna, ai, aya, saya, queen of darkness, marie :(